2014?

So I looked back on my goals for the new year. Holy cow. I have definitely come...far...i haven't been on my blog in months so it's weird to see what I came up with. And I know it's te end of April but I didn't get to look back on them at the new year. I just really wanted to see what I accomplished in the trying year of 2014... Here we go

I started off with wanting to cherish the moment. I...am currently still working on that. MOVING ON!

Find inner harmony. I'm not quite sure I've totally accomplished this but I know I have found peace in the year and all I really did was move on from everything that was holding me back.

Get better. I definitely accomplished this one. I'm not the brooding sad little weirdo I used to be. I really feel like this went with finding inner harmony. Once I moved on and really let go, I kind of discovered myself. It sounds super stupid and cheesy but I actually found myself and changed for the better.

Get a job and save money. Well... Neither of these happened. I didn't get a job and I think I'm more dirt poor now than I was last year because over the year I discovered debit cards!! And now I have spent all my money!! And I discovered Kneaders... And honestly? 7 bucks for a freaking French dip sandwich? You gotta be kidding me!!!

Exercise. That didn't really happen until like November and then I got really into it for about 3 months and then I lost my phone and I didn't have music to run to or exercise apps and it really fizzled out. :/

Find my core. I actually think I did find it. I think my core is loyalty. I am so deeply and truly loyal to people. And I didn't notice until I went through a rough time with a friend (now formal friend) and no matter what happened there and no matter what anyone says about her, I stand up for her (though I probably shouldn't). I am just super loyal to those who have meant even the slightest to me.

I don't know if I would consider it a successful year but it was sure something. 2014 tested me and it put me through a lot but I really do think I changed a lot. And I honestly think it was a great year if growth for me. I sound like a complete nutcase but oh well.

Peace out!

A New Start

I've decided to restart blogging because it is a good way to just let it out, I guess.

I took off almost all of my posts because I just want a clean start. I am so different from the person that wrote all those posts. So much has happened and I just really want a clean slate and be free from everything I used to be.

Because, honestly, I didn't like that person very much.

So here is my second chance.

I hope I use it well.

"Tomorrow is the first blank page in a 365 page book. Make it a good one"

Ok so it is the new year and over teals couple weeks, I have started my New Years...goals or whatever they are called. Here is my sappy, lame, generic list:

-cherish the moment
So i have posted about this before. The last year I have learned how I wasted all my time not appreciating the people and things i have had. It will all leave eventually and I want to cherish it while I still have it.

-find inner harmony
Part of the reason this is on here is that my horoscope said it but all year this year I have had inner turmoil and I has stressed me out and physically made me sick for weeks. Last summer I tried to find it but I didn't really have inspiration but this year, I'm really motivated.

-get better ;)
This is kind of a personal thing but I just want to emotionally get better. I know I haven't all year long and that is a big thing I want to work on.

-save money for NYU
I need money. I discovered my dream college early this year and I don't have enoughg money for one class for one term...yeah I'm dirt poor so I need to save money and not spend so much.

-get a job
This ties in with the one above. I am finally going to be old enough to get a job so I want to get off my lazy butt and get a job. (The things I do for my dreams)

-START EXCERCISING
This is literally most everyone's goal for a new year. I am so weak. I can't lift up 20 pounds and I can't even run one time around the track without dying...yeah I need to excersise.

-find my core
I became obsessed with a movie called Ride of te Guardians and it is pretty much all about Jack Frost finding his core. I thought that it would pretty much help me find who I am and what I want out of my short pathetic existence.

Tht is all I have found so far in the last month. I'm sure I will think up some while lying in bed at 3 in te morning tonight but this is my main list. And I have smaller less huge ones but this is sort of ny structure.

My thoughts part 1

I wish I were a tree

 in the autumn

That way my death could be beautiful

And colorful

And remembered